P.S. This is for You.

This past summer I've grown so much in my relationship with God, its amazing to me. But there's an area in my life to which i haven't given fully to God yet, and that would be my relationships (haha this is a funny picture, it makes me laugh :-D) with people, particularly with guys. I feel like if i don't have control over my relationships that it wont work out how i want it to. This past weekend i went home to see some of my friends and chat with my pastor to see how i can be a leader in the youth group. It was nice to see my friend's faces, i love them so much and miss them everyday. But Sunday morning at church God challenged me to trust him with a very close relationship involving a guy. God asked me to show my faith by letting go (not speaking to him) this relationship for a month. At first i said to myself that "that would be the last thing i would do to myself and this guy" but as the day continued the thought wouldn't go away. I was fighting with God and if you're a Christian you know that God ALWAYS wins in

the end. A group of friends and i went to one of our houses to watch the first batman movie and the whole time i was being tormented with what God wanted me to do (aka the reason why i was so out of it that Sunday). When it was time to say goodbye i didn't want to. specially to him but when my mom pulled up to drive me back to NCU i felt sick and just wanted to get away from everyone so i said a general goodbye to everyone. (this i regret, i wish i would've said more personal goodbyes to everyone) When i arrived back to my dorm room, God pressured me even more to the point where i finally decided i would obey. Later that night i had talked to him about everything God is doing in me and about our separation. I was impressed with him. He was very understanding. So this next part is for him



P.S. this is for you

Thanks for being understanding, I haven't told you this yet but I've been watching you grow in your relationship with God and you've always inspired me to keep growing even more in mine. I hope this situation hasn't made you sad or depressed because i know this is what God wants me to do and there will be good coming out of this, so don't be sad. don't look at the problems happening now, open your eyes to the bigger picture of what God is doing and be excited! I will miss talking to you. See ya in 26 days ;-)